Where the hell

did my will power go I am staving all the time like right after i eat. i am ALWAYS hungry and i cant seem to keep from eating like i was. some part of me knew this was gonna happen again. but i was hoping i could fight it.. weirdly my scale broke 3 days ago so thats why i am not weighing in this week ... Maybe by next week i can get this under control cause if not than i am gonna og right back to 240 just like i did in 2006

hello 200 again

well yup you guessed it i gained 7lbs in 1 week yay thats teh story of my life ok thats it for today i am pissed but oh well

49 lbs down finally

yay on my way down again todays weigh in was 194lbs yay. Today was tough though i was going to mess up just never made it to my destination.. Thank God. i can't believe i have 1lb to go till i ma the 50lbs mark.. I know i still have may hurdles and i am sure ill mess up amillion more times but i will keep going no matter what till i get where i want to be ...

Well i just can't seem to get a

hold on this dieting thing again i do good for a few days get back down than go back up to teh 200's i am glad that i have not gone any higher but i want to get over this hump and lose more...i am ina size 16 right now for most although the shorts i got seem like they are big already but i dont think i could fit into a 14. well thats it for this week.

Oh well

After another bad week i am back down to 198 from 201 so not at 195 like last week but hey... I am trying to figure out why i keep messing up and get ahold of it cause i am getting frusterated.. so my mother went out and bought me a pair of new shorts yesterday and tehy are size 16 last year it was a 22 or 24 i can't even remember.. SO thats a victory a poitive to look foward to.. Um this dieting yoyo has gotten me down lately and i need to ork on that as well i just want the willpowe i had started with back in Jan-April so thats about it i am gonna start trying to write here more than 1 a week... so hopefully i'll be back soon.

well

i made it to 195 this morning and you giessed had a cheat day go figure so hopefully next week i iwill weigh in at 195 or less we'll see

MAY was bad

The whole entire month was bad i couldn't stay on a diet for the life of me. all teh hard work i had done was going out the window so today 5 months since i started my diet i decided i needed to stop an dget back on track so here i am at 205lbs this morning boohoo... I WILL GET TO 195-199lbs by june 30th damn it