not so good AGAIN

So i havn't been on becuase i have been doing really bad adn am embarresd i was down to 188 the beginning of the month and now at 196lbs again i was starting to think everything was going good and we were all set to move into a 3 bedroom next week and a few days ago that all changed and now i am stuck in this small 2 bedroom i am so mad and depressed bout it but i am gonna move on. I start school next thursday and on friday i start traveling to Berlon 1 a week i bough scrubs for my phlebotomy class and teh top was a large and bottems a medium and now i have 6 days to try to lose as much as possiable to fit into them again. So that is my goal this week to lose as much as possiable before next Friday. And stop drinking soda again because i am doing really bad with that. So thats it for now wish me luck:)

still doing good

at 188lbs. I am so happy although i hav enot lost in a few days i am still under 190 at 188lbs. I feel good and have been getting more compliments. I hav ebeen drinking more water i am starting to wonder if that is why i am staying at 188 an dnot lower but anyways i am happy and this is my report this week.

WOOHOO progress

Somehow i managed to get to 188lbs i can't believe it i cut out soda and am staying on a strict 1,200 calorie diet and its working i am not feeling like i am starving and i feel great.... I am so happy. I am drinking more water but i need to incooperate more in. I also need to start exercising i know i would ssee more progress if i did i havnt exercised in months except for some situps and walking.. well i just fel really good and want to brag today i lost a total of 55lbs....

yay

194 today i am doing good eating healthy again and its not botering me yet so today is day 3 or no binging and no soda yay.

The start of a new week.

Well i weighed in yesterday morning at 200.4lbs grrr so i put my foot down and stayed eating good and NO soda yesterday adn today i am at 198.2lbs yay. So right now i am eating a nice healthy bowl of kix with bananas and skim milk and i am gonna try and do thi sthe right way.... I feel good and poitive besides i think i ate almost everything i wanted over the last few weeks so i am not really dying for any bad food. I also walked almost all day yesterday out side... Now i just need to get in a few workouts a week and try and tighten my belly and love handles caude they were getting bigger so i am very poitive this week.\

And thanks Krystle for reading my blog lol no i don't drink ANY water i know i need to start the taste is just so blah lol.

Where the hell

did my will power go I am staving all the time like right after i eat. i am ALWAYS hungry and i cant seem to keep from eating like i was. some part of me knew this was gonna happen again. but i was hoping i could fight it.. weirdly my scale broke 3 days ago so thats why i am not weighing in this week ... Maybe by next week i can get this under control cause if not than i am gonna og right back to 240 just like i did in 2006

hello 200 again

well yup you guessed it i gained 7lbs in 1 week yay thats teh story of my life ok thats it for today i am pissed but oh well

49 lbs down finally

yay on my way down again todays weigh in was 194lbs yay. Today was tough though i was going to mess up just never made it to my destination.. Thank God. i can't believe i have 1lb to go till i ma the 50lbs mark.. I know i still have may hurdles and i am sure ill mess up amillion more times but i will keep going no matter what till i get where i want to be ...

Well i just can't seem to get a

hold on this dieting thing again i do good for a few days get back down than go back up to teh 200's i am glad that i have not gone any higher but i want to get over this hump and lose more...i am ina size 16 right now for most although the shorts i got seem like they are big already but i dont think i could fit into a 14. well thats it for this week.

Oh well

After another bad week i am back down to 198 from 201 so not at 195 like last week but hey... I am trying to figure out why i keep messing up and get ahold of it cause i am getting frusterated.. so my mother went out and bought me a pair of new shorts yesterday and tehy are size 16 last year it was a 22 or 24 i can't even remember.. SO thats a victory a poitive to look foward to.. Um this dieting yoyo has gotten me down lately and i need to ork on that as well i just want the willpowe i had started with back in Jan-April so thats about it i am gonna start trying to write here more than 1 a week... so hopefully i'll be back soon.

well

i made it to 195 this morning and you giessed had a cheat day go figure so hopefully next week i iwill weigh in at 195 or less we'll see

MAY was bad

The whole entire month was bad i couldn't stay on a diet for the life of me. all teh hard work i had done was going out the window so today 5 months since i started my diet i decided i needed to stop an dget back on track so here i am at 205lbs this morning boohoo... I WILL GET TO 195-199lbs by june 30th damn it

199 STILL

WHY WHY WHY can't i get past 199lbs i have been here since i got back to 199 last week i go from 199.8 to 199.0 back to 199.8 again why can't i get past it no matter how good i eat and walk its a little frusterating and this is the reason i essed up so badly a few weeks back because i feel like i'll never get past 199 anyways atleast i am back under 200lbs right

Totally screwing it ip

like i knew i would i am having such a hard time keeping my eating under control i don't know where got the willpower from befor ecause its gone now.. i have went from 199 to 205 as of today. grrrr and that last 8lbs took forever to lose teh whole month of april anyways i know its early but all i have eaten so far today is a low fat poptart and a orange juice Thats it for now hopeing to get back on teh wagon and strong i wanted to wear shorts this year damn it and its not looking to good

Again yay

yay 199 again after a week woohoo i am so excited nothing to really report this week i tryed to do better so i can be back out o fthe 200's AGAIN and i did.. I know i need to post her emore than once a week....

damn it

SO for some odd reason the day i weighed in 199.6lbs teh very next day up untill yoday i messed up i gained back a ton of weight i am so mad as far as today i have 3.6lbs to lose to get back to 199 i know that don't sound like much but that last 3lbs took forever to lose....i was 202 fr liek 2 weeks... I am not sure why i screwed up so bad and for so long. But i havn't been able to get back on i guess i'll no better next time cause it deff was not worth it... I feel so disgusted with myself everyone starts complementing me and i blow it all to hell..

So here i am at 203.2 this morning trying to get below 200 again wish me luck oh yeah and on a side not May 1st made 4 months since i started my diet... Now if i can just stay on track

well i hit

199 yesterday 199.6 to be exact but unfortunatly for some reason today i am back to 200 yuck i can't wait to not see the 200' s anymore but oh well for now

losing slowly now

its kind of a bummer but i think i need to look at it in a different wat u need to stop weighing in everyday and i need to stop limiting my self cause i am starving cause i am so worried what the next day weigh in is gonna be so wish me luck i am 202 this week which i have been for days now

40 lbs down yay

As of today i have officially hit a 40lbs loss i really can't believe it in just 3.5 months i lost 40lbs by eating healthy... i no wi just have to lost about 50 more lbs and ill be at my goal and i am just 4lbs away from being out of the 200's althought it feels like its taken forever to lose these last few lbs to bring me out of the 200's i know ill get there...

206 this week

but i have ben here since last Sat grrr so frusterating... ia m so close to 199 but so freaken far away. on a good note i do have a few new pairs of clothes:)

35 lbs down today

i am officialy 208 and hit my 3rd mini goal yesterday yay only 10more lbs til 199 an dbye bye 200's

3 Months today

i started my diet at 243lbs and as of today i am 209lbs yay 34lbs down

2 pounds down this week

only 12 more to go and BYE BYE 200's yay

30 lbs still

well i weight exactly the same as i did 2 days ago so i guess my no way in day was as great as i wanted it to be but oh well atleast i am not weighing anymore

No weigh day

yeah a weird heading but i usually weigh in every day and i am driving my self nuts... So i am not weighing in today.. I know sounds easy but not for me i weigh in everyday and sometimes at night too.... i am obsessed but it must be working cause i have stuck to this diet of mine.... 30lbs as of yesterday yay... so tomorrow is my weekly weigh in day where i mark it down so i'll be back tomorrow to update

1 lb up

not sure why becausei havnt screwed up but oh well i still haev a 2 lb loss since last week so yay

3 lbs this week already

Well i am feeling good havnt made it to curves this week but you bet ill be going tomorrow. I already have lost 3lbs since thursday yay.... it must be that egg a day .. Today i started metformin cause my cycles are all messed up and i have had a period since Dec yeah really bad and ona good note a side effect of the metformin is weightloss os i am hoping that helps some..

Well thats my thought for now... 2 more days till weigh ina dn i cant wait for once

Weekend post

Well i decided to do a post today because i have something i want to get out.. Since i started my diet on Jan 1st i have been eating lean cuisine smart one meals and fat free food.. well i decided that i am gonna substitute somethings for those sometimes because tehy are full of sodium. Like i usually have ceareal with skim milk and now i have been eating 1 egg on toast and some fat fee hashbrowns with ketchup.. I realise i need a little fat in my diet and that food is so much more saisfying.. So i am gonna change things up.. ALso on Feb 27th i started going to curves i went there in "06" and lost 50lbs in a few months so i am hoping to have that sucess again.. Well thats about it for now anyways...

Finally

After not being able to go below 219 i hit 218.8 today so not by much but yay i did it 19 more lbs till i am out of teh 200's woohoo... I am feeling better today about this although i am a little afraid that tomorrow i will be back at 219 but i guess thats what i get for being tehir so long

2 lbs up

So due to my stupidness last week and beginning of this week i gained 2 lbs that wont seem to come off big bummer but what ever i just keep telling myself that i can get over and beat this i am not gonna lie i was hoping that i would have been where i was before i messed up but oh well.... So anyways i set my self a new goal of 199 by June 30th so thats like 4 months.... I think i can do i hope i can do it i am so ready to say good bye to the 200's well thats it for now

Bad weekend

Well i adn't messed up in a wile and i decided Thursday to go to McDonalds adn get a sheesburger a small fry adn small coke which was great cause i always get big of everything i was so happy cause i did not gain any weight that day than the next day we hada a appt 2 hours away so again i went to mcdonalds got a double cheesburger,small fry adn large coke again no weight gain but than sat and yesterday i binged all day both days and yup i gained 2lbs i am so mad at myself i had been stuck at 219 for over a week and now i am back to 221 i hope i can jump back fast and lose it cause i am so stressed over it but trying to think positive.. I felt so disgusted with my self.. I feel so much happier adn healthier when i am eating healthy and seeing the #'s on the scale dropping.. So i figured i'd need to get this out and here is the perfect place to do so.....

7 weeks today

and i am down to 219 yay which i have been at for atleast 3 days now but i have also been sick not sure why i am staying the same but i cant complain in 7 weeks i have lost 24 lbs.. I went out and bought a new bra yesterday and am not very happy with it as my boobs just looked screwed up in them but what can i do i havnt wore a bra in over a year just sports bras :( so thats my update for now... oh yeah i had been challenged with food for almost 2 weeks adn i have not given in yet yay me ....

6 weeks today and

19 lbs down it was 20 but i gained 2 oz since yesterday lol no big deal i really need to stop weighing everyday but maybe thats whats keeping me on my tippy toes who knows. I can't believe i made it 6 weeks with only a few mess ups i fel really good and can't wait to get to my goal.... I have more energy although i do need to find a way to incooperate exercise i dont do much of that.. But i am working on ut:)

1 lb

1 lb heavier than last week but thats with losing a few that i gained since too so i am not to dissapointed...

Darn it all

Well i had a pretty bad week and i just couldnt seem to get on track till yesterday so tomorrows weigh in is gonna put me at more than i was last week. I was depressed at 1st but than i realised i am gonna have many ups and downs through out this i have a lot of weight to lose.. SO i am ok with it. I need to plan my meals better and stay away from salty foods which target my binges... Well ill be back to check in tomorrow

Weigh in day

Well 3 lbs since last week is great. I did mess up a couple times which has made my weight stay the same but hey atleast i am not gaining any right. I also bought a nice new scale but unfortunatly its reading different weights all the time oh well

Oh yeah i hit my first mini goal of 229 yay now i am off for hitting my 2nd at 219

weigh in day

Well i lost 4 lbs since last week only 1 lb from my mini goal of 229 woohoo this weeks been good I feel so much better about myself:) and feel so much more healthier

wooohoooo

Well i didnt weigh myself yesterday whichisthe hardest thing in the world to do and also myfamily ate at McDonalds last night and i actually said no and didnt eat any and my reward this morning was a 2lb weight loss woohoo 2 more lbs till my 1st mini goal.. So i decided to weigh myself every other day

2 weeks today

SO today makes 2 weeks dieting and since i messed up a few days ago my weightloss for thi sweek was only 1lbbut thats better than gaining i guess

So i totally messed up

yesterday and put back on 2 lbs but oh well todays a new day and i am not looking back i gotta work on not haveing those mess up days that was my 1st one since starting my diet on the 1st so anyways.. just thought i should update:)

a ok day so far

Well today has been OK so far i feel pretty nauseous which is a good thing as that means i am not hungry lol. I lost 8oz from yesterday which still has me at 234 but exactly lol so hopefully tomorrow i might be 233. I want to be 230 or 22 by Thursday i hope i can do it.. we'll see. I start school On Monday also so that adds a bit of stress but i am gonna try to find different approaches to deal with that

a not so good feeling day

Well today and last night has beenup and down i didn't take my diet pills yesterday or today and i have been so hungry i feel really down about it. Its like everytime i get to a week something goes wrong. So that sums up me for today i am starving and miserable.

My food log today

Breakfast--fatfree bluberry yogurt

Snack--weight watcher chocoalte chip cookie

Lunch--healthychoice chicken noodle soup and choc skim milk

Snack--clemintine

Dinner--

Snack--

Water--8 oz

Exercise--10 minutes or so

Wow this is my first blog post

Well A little about me I am 24 i will be 25 next month i am a mommy to Scottie-4 Haley-3 and Katie-11 months I am married and havebeen for 6 years and together for almost 9 years.
I have been over weight my whole life except fora shorttime wheni was 13 way back in 1997 I looked awsome I think and thats how i want to look again. I have tryed many diets, diet pills and different waysof eating all which have failed. So now i discovered that 2009 needs to be THE year a new year meaning a new me. I started a diet last Thursday January 1 and to date i have already lost 8 lbs yay. Unfortunatly that was mostly in the 1st 3-4 days but i amjust gonna keep focused and move on. I want to lose 93 more lbs for a total of 100lbs. My goal weight is 140-145. I want to look good be and feel healthy, have more energy for my kids. So istarted eating healthier low fat meals, no soda which was veryhard cause thats all i used to drink and try to drink more water.So far so good.

this is what my food intake looks like

Breakfast--low fat ham and cheese english muffin and Orange juice

Snack--handful of grapes

Lunch--(Late) salad with fat free french a 12 cup of skim milk adn like5 fat free pringlesSnack--

Dinner--

Snack--

Water--8oz

Exercise--